*blindspirit

I have a plan I swear.

I plan on getting my inking pens in the mail in the next few days and hopefully not hating the artwork that I have done without you all knowing it.

I plan on getting something figured out with my college tuition and getting financial aid even though my parents giving me their tax info so late royally fucked me into getting anything any time soon. So my first payment of College comes outta pocket. Fabulous.

I have a plan on getting out and not wasting any more of my summer. I picked WoW back up and along with it I think I also picked up a few pounds. So those will go bye bye so help me god.

I plan on keeping my house clean for longer then a week without freaking out and wanting to stab myself in the head or saying "What stinks?"

I plan on complaining a lot more about work and how they schedule me for one day a week on only 5 hours of work and then THEY ASK ME IF I WANT TO TAKE THE DAY OFF. FUCK NO YOU DUMBASS WHORES.

I plan on doing something creative. Something that makes me feel proud of my work again instead of going "Well it makes me feel better that its done but I know that no one else cares about my work at all."

I plan on drinking more water.

I plan on getting in touch with family that I don't know. I grew up in a pretty hostile environment to family and so I grew up only knowing my immediate family. I have found that I like hanging out with family. I enjoy family and fuck all who thinks that family isn't an important part of your life.

I plan on letting go on my current family frustrations and moving on with life. Hopefully the people around me can respect that and stop telling me all these horrible things about my family and things they have done in the past. I don't fucking care anymore and I don't wanna become a gossip monger who's only purpose is to be fed the lies and hurt that comes from gossip. And my only job is to talk to those people feeding them more lies and hurt. It all end in anger and if any of you are reading this here is my personal statement: You're fucking stupid, get out of high school and realize that you're not a fucking child anymore. Get over it and move on and if you fucking think that I give a shit about who did what to you, you are sorely mistaken. The only people who have hurt me are you. Everyone else has done nothing but support me and take care of my emotional needs while all you do is think about yourself and how everything effects you. SO fuck your feelings. They don't effect me any more.

To all those who aren't "You" forget that and remember, I'm Kitty, and I might not know you personally, but I love you none the less as a person.